<----- Me with two unlockable locks. Ahhhh yes, school is back in. My classes are alright, my teachers are average, but for some reason I have a feeling that this is going to be a great year- my graduating year! The only thing that would ameliorate this year would be if I could manage to remember my locker combination for either of these uniformed locks- silly code of conduct. Joking aside, the one thing that could bring more joy to this year is, at the moment, out of my reach. My weekly horoscope announced that it was time i take charge and get the results I want- so who knows? Maybe one of the Jonas brothers (Who kicked ass in concert last night) will stumble upon my doorstep (^.^)

That's it, goodnight,

Me.

<---- Me surrounding myself with things I love, in this case, Harry Potter. If my over the top walls were not enough, I am now in the midst of re-reading the series yet again. It's an escape like no other, into a fantasy world of magic and enchantment. What i would give to go to Hogwarts.... speaking of school, i start secondary five tomorrow, my graduating year of high school. It almost seems surreal, what a journey these past 4 years have been, I feel as though I've gone through so many transformations. I'm hoping for a great year. Now, as expected, I'm going to drone on about "the incident." (Yes, I am that predictable.) So I feel as though I've made a tiny bit of progress, though the feeling will be fleeting and momentary. Being on quite friendly terms is a pleasant surprise, and writing a song about it allowed my brain to make sense of my emotions, but did not ease the pain, not yet at least. But hopefully, a new school year will bring a new outlook. I can't wait to see you, baby, I'm still here.

That's all until tomorrow,

Me.

<----- Hanging out with Older ( Like you haven't heard that one before, eh hun? So incognito.) She and my other two best friends, Doiny and Allehandra are planning a variety show to raise money for the organization Enfant-Retour Quebec. Yet another distraction- thank God. We had our first real meeting today, it's nice to be helping "the cause" and feel as though I'm accomplishing something productive and worthwhile. Since the Vlad-Ty situation, I've been feeling more or less worthless, so this is a nice change. Today, though just as tough as the passed few, differed slightly; I still hurt with every fiber of my being, but I was able to put a smile on my face- a mask, a charade. It might not heal my thoughts, but it seems to be assuring my family, who was tremendously concerned. And I don't know where I would be without my friends. I love each and every one of you- thank you for being mes p'tite cheries <3

That's all for tonight,

Me.

<----- Me having the best friends ever. Mik-Blu and Monkey dropped by my house unexpectedly wearing a Harry Potter cloak and a Hermione outfit. If that wasn't enough, they came with a Pikatchu ice cream cake, writing and all, saying "You're Awesome!" I've been a homebody for the last few days, a veritable zombie, unable to smile or communicate. Then my two little angels trek over to my house in the sweltering heat to knock on my door, all fancily clad in Hogwarts attire, simply to cheer me up. For the time being, sitting here sharing sumer stories with them, I'm hurting a little less. I love them and their heartfelt attempts to cheer me up more than anything, more than anyone. Mik-Blu you are the most optimistic, amazing guy I know. Monkey, you're the most special, sensitive girl around. Thank you for giving me a momentary break from myself and from my thoughts.

That's all for now,

Me.

<-------- The art project I spent my day making; It's a memory box. I used clippings of old magazines, newspapers, and scrapbook materials to put together this keepsake crate. Inside of it, is a very select group of memorabilia. In it I have stowed away pictures, letters, and other objects pertaining to a "certain someone." Though Vlad-Ty is very dear to my heart, I need to make a point to begin letting go of the past. With my new box, I will be able to start moving on, without ridding myself completely of all the amazing times. I know that Vlad-Ty and I will create many new memories, however different from the ones in the past, which leaves me something to look forward to.

That's it for now,

Me.

First Post...Yipee!

<----- Me clearly not all smiles. Had a bit of a dreadful evening/night.  I can't wait for this whole ordeal to pass, I've never felt so hollow. Why men always seem to hurt women in the end will forever be a mystery to me. And now that i have discovered that real love is so spectacular, what makes it all come crumbling to a devastating end? These questions are haunting me. As a matter of fact, it's currently 3:33 AM and I am not the slightest bit tired. In order to try and keep my mind from exploring tonight's happenings, I've been keeping quite busy; that was the reason for starting this blog. I must admit, I'm fairly excited to start this, it's sort of like an online diary- a typed out soliloquy. I'm looking forward to continue posting and updating. Hopefully tomorrow will be a bit less tough. (I love you baby, no matter what)

That's all for the time being,

me.